˚· ʚ₍•̥̥̥ᄋ̫•̥̥̥₎ɞ .⊹

still dealing with illness and fear of death. want to at least post here - this place is really the only place for wren to feel at ease... social media panopticon is overwhelming to engage with under constant threat that wren will eventually be brought down for its eccentricities and fixations, meatspace is thoroughly unpleasant, and even the normal intimate companionship of others is just overbearing lately... perhaps afraid to be too close to others while possibility of fading away eternally is looming...

currently playing dragon quest v. it is a very meditative game which has been really helpful for managing emotions and paranoia. doing really much else has proven really difficult.. struggling to draw, model, develop, anything else. have not been so depressed in a very long time, the type of depression where am sleeping most hours of the day, but finding it difficult to break out of until prognosis improves.

heres small drawing. have been trying to do things outside of comfort zone (profile pictures of girls) but hesitate to post them... waiting til feel improved enough... have also been drawing H images but have a lot of anxiety over sharing things like that...

praying a lot to gwyndolin for things to improve... will continue to do so until am either delivered or dead.

【wren】